Monday, November 26

i think i'm bloody sensitive, ... ... emotional, and perhaps.. .. foolish.

sometimes, when there's nothing , i still can make a fuss out of it.
i think i really feel so... ... paranoid.
but it seems so uncontrollable.
i've tried.. really, i've tried.
but it's not as simple as it seems to be.
cos i'm easily hurt.

shuld i be serious or return to my usual self? happy go lucky?
but it might not last if that's e case.

i'm demanding too much from him.
though i didnt spell out my demand,
but my heart is alr demanding more..

i'm too over..
.. too overboard.
but just cant control myself.
i'm too used to it.
is it because of my living environment?
or maybe
that's just a gd reason to excuse myself.

i discover, .. my family doesnt really care and concern for me anymore.
they jus wanna control my life. that's all.

no warmth in life. totally no more.
he's my everything, he's my only warmth now.
it might be a good thing, it might be a bad thing.
bad in... .. i rely on him too much.
perhaps, he'll feel suffocating soon..
but i understand that he cant be there every single moment when we got our own live, own things, own living.

AHHH!!! i feel so emo now.
help!
what can i do to stop myself from revolving around his world.
it's such a intricate feeling.

but maybe just like what he said..
i just need to know that he loves me.

i need extreme warmth.
i feel so lost.
i wonder why i cant feel love.

maybe... , really nothing can stop my love for him.
but loving someone is always not an easy thing.
unless.. .. i'm undemanding.


I LOVE HIM.